I will begin with apologies to R.E.M for using their lyric as the basis for my title and to readers for being a bit dramatic.
I know that the world isn’t about to end, but my life and future have certainly changed dramatically! The thing is that this change has really happened when I feel totally healthy (ok, other than a breast which is larger and hard with skin that feels like plastic).
I expect that I have taught my last day of my classes at the high school. It is like having retired without any of the planning or preparation. My expectation for this time of year? I had expected to be at work every weekday from 8:00 – 4:00, to be preparing Sunday services for three Sunday’s/month, and all the usual household activities. Now, most of my days consist of chauffeuring my kids to and from university at their times of preference, waiting for, scheduling and going to have tests and appointments etc.
It is really surreal, especially when filling out forms about terminal illness. How can I have a terminal illness when I feel fine?
You know that expression, waiting for the other shoe to drop? Well, I feel like it has been raining shoes over the last couple months, and today yet another.
Tom and I went to meet with the medical oncologist (the doctor who handles chemo). I had a few tests since my last appointment, and today there would be new, good or bad.
Today’s shoe, cancer has spread to a rib. That means it has metastasized, gone to other organs etc, and we are no longer looking at curing the cancer but staying ahead of it.
I have no quips, nor any deep insights today.